Pride and Prejudice

I am busy. Like I always am when I'm in school. I'm facing big choices like university and careers. Things that I had never really considered till now. I thought of them yes, but not considered. Sometimes I feel like its out of my control. and Sometimes I feel like the big drive I´ve had till now is fading. I´ve worked very hard for the past 3 years and I'm 18. I´ve had a lot of happiness and some sadness too. I love school, but do I? Sometimes really I don't know how carefully done my works are done, sometimes I just cant understand my sociology class or calculus. Everything I liked and everything I don't, its just not clear anymore.

And I sit here with a pile of work I just don't want to do it. But I know I have to and I wonder if I'm making too much drama out of it. If its really nothing to get like this, if I'm making it bigger. Deep inside I know I am. But there is a a part of me that can´t avoid it. I know better but somehow I just can not make it work as much I would like.

All my strength, my intelligence, I feel like if it has left me. But again I'm so young it supposed to move right? My emotional situation I mean. I just...feel weird. I don't feel like myself. And I'm desperately grasping the last strings of the accord I have built so far. Its... not common. specially on me, who was full of life and wantings to conquer the world. I have begun realizing how human I am, and that my power has a limit.

Ever felt like you need a soundtrack for your life? Me too but I´ve found it, and its the soundtrack to Pride and Prejudice. It makes me feel better.

Peace.